I would walk 20 miles…

So yesterday I had a great accomplishment, I walked 20 miles. No that is not a typo… I really walked 20 miles. My husband and I went for our normal 4.5 mile walk but when we got there we decided to go on the opposite side of the trail. We started walking and my husband said that we could go as far as I wanted but that to remember we had to walk back just as far. So we started walking and didn’t stop until we reached the end of the trail which took us into downtown Columbus. I thought I was going to die but we had some lunch at a deli and got the kids resituated (oh yes… we brought out 1 and 2 year olds along in the stroller) Then we turned around and headed back. I knew that once I turned around there was no going back. I thought I was going to pass out at one point and I nearly cried towards the end because my legs were hurting so bad… but I made it. It was amazing and I feel so good about myself. My husband, who is in the Army, was even worn out. He told me that he didn’t think I would go 10 miles much less 20 and that he was so impressed and proud. I have been stuck in a weight rut lately hanging around 232lbs. I weighed in this morning at 228lbs. I don’t know if that will stick but for now I’m happy with it. I haven’t been in the 220’s in a long time. I’m slowly working my way to ONEderland. 2-teens here I come! Don’t let anyone ever tell you that getting a lap band is the easy way out. I have to work hard at it ever single day. Hope to update you soon with some better numbers!

1st Fill!

Okay so it’s been a while since my last update. My weight has been all over the place the last two weeks. I got down to 232lbs and then shot back up to 239lbs. As of this morning I’m back at 232lbs. I had my first fill two days ago. They initially gave me 4ccs in my 10cc band but I was not able to swallow water so my doctor took out 1cc, so currently I’m at 3ccs. I can tell a difference but it’s not as severe as I thought it was going to be. I have been on liquids since then and restart solids tomorrow. Honestly though I have been doing mushy stuff more than liquids. I had some refried beans, some soup, and of course my protein shakes. I started serious exercise last week. I have been doing a little here and there but when my weight started climbing again I knew that I needed to get it together. I have been walking/running 2-5 miles almost every day. During the week I try to get 3 miles in on the treadmill. I’m still moving pretty slow though and it takes me about an hour to do it, but I can tell I am pushing myself because I always feel like I’m going to die when I’m done. On the weekends or days my husband is off we have been walking on a trail on base. It’s about 2.25 one way, so we end up about 4.5 miles by the time we are done. I feel really good about it. I know that I’m doing something good for my health so it keeps me motivated. I hope next time I have some weight loss to report!

Month 1 Down!

I started this blog to be honest. Honest with myself and with others about how difficult this truly is. It has been one month since I had my surgery. I still weigh 233lbs. That means that in the last two weeks I have lost NO weight. I know that it is my fault and it’s depressing. I feel very normal, almost like I never had the surgery. I haven’t had my first fill yet and so the band is doing nothing at this point. I have slowly but surely starting working my way back into my old habits. I’m hungry a lot in the evenings and have been snacking, which is a big no-no. I see now that this is the point in diets that I fail. I have been pushing and pushing and now I’m not seeing any results and I give up. I know that with the Lap Band those things are going to change soon, thank God.

I feel like I need a jumpstart. I haven’t been exercising like I should be and some days not at all. I don’t know why I feel disappointed if I haven’t put in 100% effort. I feel like a giant hypocrite. I tell my husband all the time that he can’t whine or be disappointed if he doesn’t succeed at something unless he put in 100% effort. Ouch… talk about a lesson for myself.

I feel motivated just by sharing this with you all. It makes me accountable. I can’t just hideaway and forget about the mistakes.

On a happy note… I had to go shopping today to buy and outfit for a baby shower I’m throwing my cousin this weekend. I was going to wear a dress I had but when I tried it on it didn’t fit… it was too BIG! It wasn’t enormous or anything but it hung off my shoulders and chest oddly. I went to Old Navy, where I usually can’t buy pants because they don’t carry plus size in the store and I do buy shirts but they are always XXL. Today I bought a skirt and a shirt in size XL. Both fit very well and I think I could have gone to an L in the skirt but it would have been too short for me.

Day #19 Post Op

I’m feeling pretty good overall. I still have some soreness in my stomach area but it’s not too bad. It feels like I did a lot of crunches or sit ups. I weighed in this morning at 232 lbs, which means in the last 5 days I have only lost one pound. That is very depressing but I know it is my fault.

The wagon from which I fell…

Well I had my first “bad” day. Excuses aside I didn’t plan well and ended up not eating anything from about 9:30am to 5:30pm and then felt the need to make up for it at dinner. This is one of my previous habits that caused me to gain in the first place. I felt bad about it, but apparently not bad enough to not do it. I ate out, which was another no-no . I also indulged WAY too much in sweets. I had 4 candies and 3 cookies. I just had a meltdown I guess. I decided I wasn’t going to let that get me down though. I started fresh the next day and I’m back on track.

 I need to work out more. I didn’t do so great over the weekend. I did a lot of house work but didn’t actually get in a walk or any real exercise. I need to bump up the time and intensity if I’m going to make an impact in my weight.

I’m really looking forward to my first fill. I made my appointment today and it’s not until May 9^th but I guess that is what I’ll be working toward!

As Requested!

My wonderful sister Amanda asked if I had been doing my measurements in addition to my weight. The answer was no. So I have since remedied that issue. Below are my measurements as of today.  Some of those numbers are pretty scary. I was pleased to see that there was some difference in my waist and hips though.

Area	4/13/2012
Neck	16
Bust	49.5
Waist	44
Hips	50
Thigh	25
Calf	17.5
Arm	15

My update so far is… I haven’t lost anymore weight. (Bummer) I have been going out every day and doing some type of physical activity. Usually I walk with my family around our neighborhood. I walked yesterday and pumped up the intensity. I’m a little sore in my stomach muscle area but I think that is just par for the course. I also started working out my arms. I don’t want to have bat wings so I’m trying to tone them up now. I have been struggling with what types of exercises to do though. My arms are pretty week and I don’t have any workout equipment except a balance ball and two 8lb dumbbells. I used the dumbbells last night and they seemed too heavy but I used them anyway. If anyone has suggestion I would love to hear them!

Two Weeks Post Op

Overall I am feeling great. I still have some soreness in my side where my port site is, it seems to get worse with the more I push myself but I guess that is just the muscle healing.

I bought a new scale today. I may have mentioned that the one I had was a piece of junk. The last weigh in on the old scale said 231, the first weigh in on the new scale said 233. I’m just glad that I will have an accurate reading going forward. Based on my new scale I have lost 11 pounds since surgery, 24 pounds since my pre-op diet and 30 pounds since I started on my journey. I’m really happy with that. I don’t feel like I have lost 30 pounds but I can tell there is some difference when I look at pictures. I have another 73 pounds to go before I reach my goal weight of 160 and I feel motivated. 30 pounds down without even getting one fill. Pretty awesome!

I have been struggling some with eating but I have really been trying to branch out and try new things. I have also been journaling… EVERYTHING!! This is so important, at least for me. I have total accountability when I journal everything. I have not gone over 1200 calories at all, and most days I’m below 1000. If I didn’t write it all down I wouldn’t have any idea what I was eating. I have also been doing LOTS of measuring. Learning portion sizes is enlightening. I had no idea what the portion sizes were on so many things. A have also become crazy at reading labels. Sometimes what you think is healthier may have more calories than the regular version. (Example: I found corn tortillas have almost exactly the same nutritional content as flour tortillas, so why not eat the one I like if it’s the same?)

Water, water, and then have some water:

 I have had a challenge getting my water in but I have a cup that is 16oz. and every time I finish a cup, I journal it. As the evening approaches if I don’t have 4 checkmarks by my water I know I need to pick up the pace.

Meds/Protein:

Well I have been off my Blood Pressure medication since the day before surgery (Woot Woot!). It’s amazing how fast your body reacts to diet changes. I have been taking my multi vitamin once a day and my calcium three times a day. I keep track of that in my journal too. I have a protein shake everyday for breakfast. I didn’t eat breakfast before the surgery so this was not a difficult transition for me. I add fiber into my shake in the mornings, the flavorless kind. I also check this off in my journal so that I don’t forget. 

Summation: JOURNAL… JOURNAL… JOURNAL!!

NSV! (AKA Non Scale Victories)

I hadn’t heard this term before until I started researching the Lapband. It’s pretty self explanatory but I guess I’ll explain it anyway… Basically a Non Scale Victory is something that has changed in a positive way since you started losing weight but it might not be reflected on the scale. For example…

I had my very first NSV yesterday. During my pre-op diet I took my kids for a walk in the stroller almost every day. We live in an apartment complex (in the back) and I would push the kids to the front to check the mail and drop off the trash. After making that trip I would be very tired and usually go to the park and let my kids play while I sat down and rested.

 Yesterday I went down to the mail and dropped off the trash and I felt good… I felt really good. I could tell I was lighter and quicker. I decided I didn’t want to go to the park and sit down. I just kept walking. I walked most of the neighborhood and I didn’t get tired until about 20 feet away from my door. It was amazing. It seems like something so small but it was great. I would venture to say that my first NSV has been the best part so far. I am totally looking forward to walking with the kids again today.